Some of you may or may not have noticed that I haven’t been really on the ball with my blog. Well, that’s because I haven’t even been myself lately. Please know that this isn’t easy to say or admit. I have, and am, battling depression for a while now. I think I started getting a little depressed a couple of years ago, but in the past year since I lost Joy; I have really had a hard time. About a week ago I noticed it was bad. I’m taking the first step and I am admitting to myself that I’m battling depression. I have good days (like today) and I have bad days. I know that this isn’t going to just go away, everyday is a battle. I’m working hard to really get through this without medication; I know that God can heal me. With a lot of hard work and prayer I can beat this!! So please keep me in your prayers.
Also Donnie and I are still trying to have a baby. So far no pregnancies yet. We are on hold with medications right now due to no health insurance. We were looking at getting private insurance, but it looks like that’s not going to be a good choice right now with my health and trying to have a baby.
Donnie is still looking for a job, he has a couple of things that look good, but we are still waiting for one of them to call back. Please keep him in your prayers. He is working so hard and trying to find a job, and taking care of me. I have to take a moment a say thank you to my husband. He is a God sent!! When I finally was able to sit down and tell him (and myself) that I was depressed, he stepped up no questions asked. He is working very hard to help me on my bad days. He is there for me everyday. I praise the Lord for blessing me with such a wonderful and loving husband. So please keep him in your prayers.
Reeses is doing well also, she is keeping all the bugs out and making sure that the bed is kept safe while we are away. She is still having ear problem here and there.
I would like to thank all of you for your love and support, as Donnie and I are patiently waiting to have a baby. Thank you all for just being there for us in this time in our lives. I have enjoyed sharing this time with you all. God bless you all.
**Worship like your only in His presence, Sing like no one is listening, Dance like no one is looking, and Love like you have never been hurt before!
This Video is from the movie Fireproof. God has used this movie is so many ways in Donnie and I marriage. God gave me the strength to tell Donnie about my depression. I believe that God is going to use this movie as a tool to change marriages!
Melanie – I’m sorry you’re going through so many trials right now. I’ll be praying for you.
Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, that you may be perfected and complete, lacking nothing. James 1:2-4
I will be praying for you! I don’t know all your feelings and cannot completely understand what you are going through, but I have been where you are! I love you!!!